End of my school days, end of the year, probably the end of fun... [x]

It's been a long while since I updated my blog, and now I'm back.
Nothing much to say though, since she ain't following anyway it... (How could she?!)

It's November already (will end soon), and SPM has been going on since last week, so what?
I didn't revise like a freak though, just let it flow, smooth...
And December is around the corner (obviously), my birthday month, I'm thinking about a BBQ party, but I might fail to afford it. (Damn it!)
But no matter, it'll be fine even with just having a tea with her.

This year is ALL about her (good or bad?), there're good things about it and there're also bad ones.
Good thing is I found my motivation (finally),  someone that makes me wanna move my ass and go do things that I wouldn't even do in the past.
And bad things...
Where do I start?
Disappointment always kills me, and for a whole fxxking year, I thought she fell for me, but it's just me.
Oh wow, there goes my effort that I made with sweat, energy and even blood (sometimes).
But what does she care?
I have no idea, I just wanna keep going further and see how this works. (Wish me luck?)

Anyways, I'm leaving this shithole town soon, and she said she'll miss me, but really?
I don't see it though.
I just wanna get away from here...
That's all...